September

Yes, it's September and it seems, my darling readers, that I have been unintentionally neglecting you. The past few days have been a whirlwind of feelings and expectations. My world is a strange place at the moment. My dreams aren't bad, and haven't been for months for the most-part, but they've turned into something different.

The baby dreams are still around, and seem far more happy now than they did a couple of months ago. I remember one in which I had twins and neither would take milk and both died as a result. The new dreams involve me being a great mother, I guess that's a better turn out to the dreams in general, but I'm still a little freaked out by them. On the other hand, of course, the idea that the baby could symbolise the start of something new is one that seems more probable. Both Mark and I are determined to make our relationship work despite the distance and the fact that the babies are surviving, even thriving in my dreams could be an indication that I'm feeling more positive about this.

The fact that both Hayley and Mark are away at least for the weekend (in Mark's case) and the week (in Hayley's) brings an annoying space of time that needs to be filled with something this weekend. Luckily the guild are planning to do the deep tonight, and even if we don't manage to get enough of a team together I'm sure there'll be something to do as well. Last night was strange without Mark, but Alf was skyping with me. The loneliness seems only to be at the forefront of my mind when I'm actually alone completely or not busy, and even then, if I really need him, Mark will be there.

Last night was full of interesting conversation, I hadn't spoken to Alf for some while, and I missed him. His interesting spin Mark and my relationship was entertaining to say the least, especially since he's good friends with both of us, and his gentle giant demeanor was something I haven't really had enough of recently. I guess sometimes it's difficult to see how much we miss some qualities in our friends until they return.

Recently my lower back has also been acting up and I've been forced to spend a good portion of my afternoons lying down to try and relieve the pain. I'm not really sure what's doing it, but I pray that it won't persist into the new term.

Part of Mark's next trip over here will be presenting him with a surprise gift. I won't say too much about it on here, because he reads this blog with great attentiveness. But let's just say much of this weekend will be spent gathering things together so that it just has to be put into motion. A visit to a craft shop will also be needed, but with the idea of a shopping trip with Hayley once she returns from Scotland, floating about I'm not too worried.

Anyway, that's it from me for the moment. Have fun everyone.